Sadness

Remember way back in the beginning I told you this journal was also going to be about life and sometimes it would be emotional? You've been warned.

Yesterday was not a good day.I didn't count calories, I didn't watch what I ate. I took comofort in chocolate and potato chips and I am sure it was another 3000+ day.

Yesterday, out of the clear blue my Orion passed away. He was only nine and that is still quite young for a cat. I won't get into the details, but it was horrifying and it's still very raw.

He was laying on the doggie pillow. Got up, stretched himself out. Laid down on the carpet... and then it happened. And within a minute... he was gone.

I'm crushed inside. My other kitties and my puppy keep looking for him.

Roger said that some stars burn out faster than others, but they burn all the brighter for it. That made me smile... I asked him who he though Orion's Evangeline was? He said... maybe the kittie on the other side of the dish washer. I cried forever.

Orion used to play with and box his reflection in the front of the dishwasher.

I miss my kitty.