Love

It’s motivational Monday here on the zombie blog. I feel as if I have a whole host of things to talk about today. We shall see how much of it manifests into writing.

First of all, I want to talk about a quote I found.

“The greatest weakness of most humans is their hesitancy to tell others how much they love them while they're alive.”
— O.A. Battista

I am not even exactly sure why this struck me as deeply as it does. I think maybe because sometimes I struggle with telling people that I love them. Well no, that isn’t really true. There are only some people I struggle to tell how much I love them. My parents are some of those people. I don’t tell them enough how much they mean to me. I am going to add that to my list of self improvements to make.

But this is about motivation. So, one of the people whom I happen to love very much is a woman whose life parallels my own in many ways. She struggles with many of the same issues I do too. We recently took note of how our lives progress down similar paths and of the struggles we have over come so far. She has been one of the people who has been travelling with me on my journey from the beginning.

So my dear S. over at MissAdventures…Thank you for always being there and being supportive. Thank you for getting me excited about my life when I really am not all that enthusiastic about it. Thank you for giving me a place to hide form the zombies for a while. I love you!

I also want to take a moment to say thank you to R. I’ve known her since high school and she has been a tremendous inspiration to me on this trip. She never fails to reach out to me with advice or encouragement and it’s in part thank to her and her fabulous blog (I go through life…), that I started blogging myself. She advised me to invite my zombies to tea, and taking a good hard look at them was very helpful to me. She also was instrumental in my getting my body bugg which is an invaluable too. Thank you R. I love you!

Motivation!!! So, I joined weight watchers online today. I can’t express how exciting this is. It’s like an entire contingent of people on anti zombie brigade! (I’m not sure they know this) I am actually excited about tracking food again! For the love of all that is good (including anti zombie-ists), I am excited about food tracking again. If that isn’t motivational, I don’t know what is.

Do not become a zombie burger. If you are close to this state… there is still hope! If you haven’t actually started munching brains yet that is. I’ve gotten close. But I am still outrunning them.

I am also planning on renewing my body bugg today. I need it. It keeps me honest. It also makes me feel awesome when I beat the calories burned form the day before, or the week before. Reminders of doing well… or even when you’re slipping back are awesome. I’ve put weight on since not having it. A Lot.

So today is a good day. I’m thankful, I’m motivated and apparently I am also verbose. So there you have it!

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Weight Check Wednesday

Happy Wednesday.

Wednesdays are going to be weight check days. I may also choose to include body measurements here, but not for right now. I decided my use of terminology was important for me. It's just a weight check and not a weigh in. I don't want to trigger my inner super soldier or anything by making it feel like this is a chore I need to do. Extremes are bad for me. They trigger my inner wild child to pull me in the other direction. I'm working on this. That is another post though.

So the weight check was not pleasantly surprising, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been considering the SEVERE indulgences that were going on during the cruise. I am guessing that the increased activity on the cruise helped counterbalance a little bit. Still the number was no where near where I want it to be and I don't think I am going to be able to make my original 12 week goal. But that is alright. Tuesdays are for goals, and I will make a new one then.

There is so much going on right now. I feel pretty overloaded. My original default mode for times like this is to just eat until I feel better. But I can't do that. I can't do that to my body and it doesn't work like it used to. Now I just feel worse after. My body and my mind are screaming for the changes I need to make.


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Day 16 & Blog Hop

Today's Quote..
"Patience is the key to paradise."

- Turkish proverb

I lost my patience last night. I just found myself feeling very frustrated with myself and my lack of progress. We all go through that at times though don't we? But my hubby stood me back on my feet and gave me a pretty good talking to. Everything I am trying to do, I have done before. I've lost probably all the weight I need to if you add up all the times I have started and stopped. I can do this. I have just not been making the best choices for myself. I am falling victim to the zombie in charge of instant gratification. That is the one that make you feel good at the moment by falling behind you so you think you are getting away. What you then don't notice is the whole horde of them that have taken the short cute and are about to jump you and eat your brains.

Heh.. not a good zombie to hang out with.

So I have attempted to recommit myself today. I recorded all my food even though I was sure I was going to go over in calories. I haven't. Close, but I haven't gone over. I'm going to work extra hard to make sure I get all of my water in tonight and go from there. I'ld like to be able to put a little number 1 up. It would make me feel really good.

Control

I am starting to feel slightly in control again. I don't want to jinx it or anything, but I am beginning to think that I am on an upswing here.

I tracked all of my food for the second day in a row. Today, I had a deficit of 1437 calories. This makes me feel so much better about the 3000+ calories consumed yesterday. I wasn't even trying to cut back on calories today. All I did was try to concentrate on eating only when I was hungry.

I think it's more than that though. I'm working on a schedule for myself. I have things I need to get done. It's November, so I am working on NaNoWriMo. Also, the bad news I mentioned briefly? Hubby and I have been spending time looking for a lawyer to help us deal with it. This has taken up time and energy too.

I'm just reaching that point where I am tired of having bad days and I am ready to move forward and feel powerful and in control.

Did I mention that for NaNoWriMo I am writing about Zombies? I bet you could have guessed it. So far, no corn-dogs though. I want to win this battle.

I took some pictures of food today. I was enjoying journaling about what I ate that day. Tonight I made spicy shrimp over rice with a garden salad on the side. Dinner was amazing. I'll post the recipe and pictures tomorrow.

Oh my late night snack tonight though? Absolutely indulgent. A bowl FULL of pomegranate seeds. How I love this time of year!
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Success Starts Today...

I am the first to admit I fell off the wagon. I'm coming to terms with a lot of life changes right now. That very steady slow loss I was seeing? I shot that up into a gain. Ugh. I am the heaviest I have been in recorded history of my weight. You know what? That's okay. It is okay because I refuse to beat myself up over it. I messed up. And I decided I am ready to do something about it. So I HAVE been going outside.

I haven't been breaking a sweat, or running marathons or anything. I have been getting UP OFF THE COUCH and out into the sunshine and the breeze and fresh air. I have been working on thinking positive thoughts about myself. Word on the street is, that zombies are attracted to self loathing.

Ok.. ditch the cheeseburger butt, and negative self thoughts on the double please... thank you.

Tomorrow we actually have scheduled to go back to the gym, with a friend even! It will be after a two month hiatus. I would feel guilty for saying that. But when I feel guilty, I hide and hope the issue goes away and rights itself. So I have decided not to feel guilty. Instead I have decided to feel proactive.

I have been inspired but a lot of things. I've been inspired by The Unexpected Sandilightful's 'Want Power' and by ...Like a Fat Kid Loves Cake's 'lego tower'. I've been inspired by I go Through life In Inches and Pounds' compassion and success. I want something I can look at and track my goals. So I have made a poster of awesome. Do you know what is awesome about it already?


I started.

Success starts today.

I restarted my bodybugg program. It suggested a 12 week goal. This time I am taking it's advice instead of trying to go for a long term goal. My first goal is to lose 12 pounds in 12 weeks. That will mean reaching 269.5 by 1/11/11. I can so do this! It's a darn cool date too don't you think?



Annnnnnndddd...... It's blog hop time!

BodyBugg Day 2

Yesterday I recorded all of my food for the day (it was a light eating day for me) and I wore my bodybugg for the entire day (minus the time to shower) Here are my results.

Calories Consumed 1300
Calories Burned 2622
Calorie Deficit 1322

Wow. That's amazing for me to see. That short walk I have been doing during the day is actually making a nice difference. I am starting to feel a bit stronger for it. Next week it's back to the Y.

I am going to walk all over those Zombies!!

Also. It is time to tame the yard outside. I live in a jungle. Our yard isn't grass. It is shrubbery and wilderness. It's the rainy season here, which means everything is growing rampant. We also do not have a lawnmower. So the plant life in the yard is well over my head. We do however, have a machete. This is a prime weapon for exterminating both zombies and weeds.

When the horde comes, don't reach for a katana... reach for the machete. Seriously.

But it is time to tackle the yard anyway. There are too many hiding places for the denizens of the undead. And I think I would like to perhaps clear a designated spot to try gardening again. The zombie apocalypse shall not stop me from having fresh veg.

WATER

I thought it was time for a bit of an update. Let's talk about water for a minute.

I try very consciously to drink 8 cups of water a day as a minimum. Occasionally, I don't make it, but that is rare. Then there are days where I drink more like 12-16 cups of water during the day. Sometimes I just have a thirsty day! these days precede nights where I sleep very little. This is because I need to pee every 2 hours on the hour. Annoying.

But here is a query for you. Why is it that if you are used to drinking 1 or 2 cups of water in a day, you can do that and feel fine. But if you are used to drinking 8 cups of water in a day, if you are short and only hit 5 or 6 you feel like a dried up sponge? After I drink 10-12 cups if I only hit 8 the next day I begin to feel like burnt toast.

Is this really a good thing? What if you indulge the crazy water desire. Eventually won't you drink so much water you will simply float away?

I don't think the zombies particularly enjoy water, but I don't think they are opposed to it either. They are for the most part pretty damn dry though.

Parting thoughts..

Drink you water, don't become a zombie.

But I love those shoes!!

Today I am hobbling around like the living dead. I seriously spend so much time avoiding the buggers, it's amazing how often I end up looking like one. Yesterday, hubby and I went out with some friends. I wore my cute black flat sneaker looking shoes with swirlies on them in pink. I call these my street shoes. They look like sneakers, but they really aren't they are just for being ou in the street. You know what I am talking about?

Today I am limping and dragging my feet. I find my poor feet want to curl on themselves when I am trying to take a step. I think it's pretty clear my street shoes just do not have the proper support for my feet! My sneakers, (my running shoes) have been fitted to me at the sports store. So they have the proper support for my feet. I walk on the outside of my feet. This is interesting because when I was younger I used to walk on the inside.

But anyway, even the fitted ones hurt my feet after a while. But my poor beloved awesome street shoes... I only wore them four a couple of hours last night. Most of that I was even sitting as our good friend surprised us with dinner for my hubby's birthday. Oh man the pain.

I had every intention of going to the Y today but I can barely walk. I may have to push it back until tomorrow.

I think I hear zombies banging on the window. I need to get my tush in gear!

Ah, knees... how you spurn me!

Yesterday I went back to the Y. Two days in a row folks. Two Day! Those zombies are in for a rude awakening. I decided I wanted to try and get an hour of working out in yesterday instead of the 30 minutes from the day prior. So I started with walking on the treadmill. I walked on average about a 2 for 30 minutes. Sometimes faster and sometimes slower. Then I got on the elliptical.

My knees were having none of it. While I had been walking on the treadmill, me knees just started HURTING. My knees never hurt on the elliptical, but evidently, they were mad at me for making them take the treadmill. So I did a total of 40 minutes instead.

I am fearing my dreams of running may be coming to an end because of the knees. At least I am making excellent progress on the elliptical and burning twice as many calories. I can't wait to be able to say for sure how many calories I am burning. I am so excited I am giddy in my chair. Another huge thank you to Like a fat kid loves cake, and Fatgirlvsworld for the Bodybugg. I am stalking my po box. :)

Anyway, Enjoy the blog hop today!

Blog Hop!

It's time to see more folks battling the denizens of the Undead and Fat Cells all in their own way! Plus these are some cool peeps! I hope you check it out!

I decided last night to make some changes. I mean after all, if we don't keep changing the zombies will eventually figure us out and get us! I even found a training manual for them at the library! More on that later though.

But I don't intend to diet for the rest of my life, but I will be following one for a little while. I am really enjoying my exercise, but it isn't enough. I must get a handle on the foods I am eating and the portions I am eating and I seriously need some help. So this will take a little more though, but I'll be trying.

And if you haven't checked it out yet, be sure to head on over to ...like a fat kid loves cake and check out the bodybugg give away!

Plus, get yourself on the list!