Think About it Thursday

Okay. Right now, I am thinking about moving. Plain and Simple. I"m also thinking about how I am still not taking care of myself like I want to be. I am finding that I don't feel like I have enough time in the day to take care of me. Moving is just sucking up my existence. Must. Get. To. This. Weekend. Ugh!

After this weekend all of the essentials will be moved over. Enough of our furniture will be in the new place that we will be living there. Yesterday we took care of the important things like combining cable accounts, and scheduling a gas pick up for the tank.

Incidentally, this was a huge rip off. They are CHARGING us 85$ to come and get the tank, and then 1$ a gallon to take the gas back out... How much does this suck. There goes the money we thought we would use to replace the vacuum cleaner.

PS Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Track Goals Tuesday

I've done very well with goals this week. I did walk three miles. I did blog once a day. I did start moving.

Honestly, I don't feel super accomplished right now. My life is being consumed with moving. I should be moved into the new place (with just the essentials) this weekend. I'll be able to better concentrate on my blogging and my goals at that time. Right now, I'm in survival mode.

Weight Check Wednesday

I am happy to report that the scale has dropped slightly. I was absolutely sure that with all of the stress I am under right now, that I would have seen a gain if anything. I cannot express how much I miss going to the gym. I also am so frustrated that I keep not getting there. But then I also have to admit that when I am done moving for the day, I have nothing left.

I've barely got enough left to make food...

But it's a process and it's one I need to go through. And at the end of this, going back to the gym full time will be a reward.

Mileage Monday

Last Monday I decided that I was going to walk three miles this week. I'm not entirely sure how I did on this goal to be honest. I walked half a mile that I counted. The rest of my walking this week was involved with moving. Now, from my front gate to my parents front gate is 1/10th of a mile. So, it really is quite possible that I walked 3 miles between all of the trips moving.

So for the coming week, I am going to be walking another three miles. This time though, I hope I can do it in a sort of trackable fashion. I am really missing going to the gym. I LIKE the elliptical and I want to get back on it. I also want to do a class or two. Though I likely won't be doing them on the same day for a while.

But here we are going into this week I'll be tackling another three weeks.

Sunday Wildcard

Today is Sunday and that means it's wildcard day. I might choose a topic from any other day of the week to revisit, or choose another of those headings to write about. Today I'm going to be talking about what is on my mind, like Thursdays.

Courtesy - noun - excellence of manners or social conduct; polite behavior.

I feel a general lack of courtesy is a huge problem with this country. It is CERTAINLY a huge problem with my neighbors.

Is it so much to ask that one not play their music so loudly that the bass permeates my entire house? The alarm clock didn't wake me up today, but the BASS did. This gets me so incredably angry that I am having trouble containing myself on the the subject. A little background.

I cannot handle people's bass. It sounds silly, and most people don't understand. But base that I can feel through my house and in my chest makes me physically ill. I will literally be sick but worst of all, it triggers my Flight response. All I can think about is running away from the feeling.. from the 'noise'. I can't sit. I can't think. I can't eat... all I can do is try to figure out how to make it stop.

I don't even know which house the music is coming from because I can't hear that part. But I can feel their freaking bass throughout my entire person. There isn't a room in the house I can escape too... We've called the police before when it got so bad that hubby had to take me away from the house because I was just ill. But it always ends up that when the cop is actually here, there isn't any music playing so who knows where it is coming from. I don't live in a traditional neighborhood, but I am surrounded by farms and dirt road communities.

How can you be such an asshat as to think the entire damn world needs to hear YOUR music.

I hope these people are slow... Go on and fiddle with your damn loud music and your freaking AWFUL BASS... zombies love slow food.

Sticky Note Saturday

Freebie Friday

It's freebie Friday here at the Zombie blog. Basically, this is my one night a week where I get to check in without something profound to say. So for tonight I am just going to let you all know that Hubby and I have been moving boxes of BOOKS and bookshelves all day and I am exhausted. So I am going to go knit on my jellyfish and go to bed! Night all!

Think About it Thursday

It's Thursday! Indeed. Thursday is going to be a highlight of what I am thinking about right now. I have entirely too much in my brain and I have gotten away from regular blogging to sort of declutter myself. So now, Thursdays are specifically for that.

First of all, does anyone use a desktop publisher for their blog? I don't really like the way blogger handled adding photos to posts. It's clunky and placement is a pain. I started researching them yesterday, but if anyone has a recommendation, I would love to have it.

Also I feel myself slowly transitioning into a reading phase. I love to read, but I go through phases. When I am in a reading phase, I devour books and can be at times insatiable and a bit irritable when the library has the nerve to be actually closed. But when I am not in a reading phase, even books which I adore can take me months to get through. I think it might have something to do with focus. Sometimes I simply feel too antsy to sit and be absorbed.

But I am reading two books in particular right now. One is called The Four Day Win by Martha Beck. It's generally about how to approach eating and your health from a non emotionally charged standpoint. I have long said that my biggest goal is to be in charge of my food and not have it be in charge of me. That is essentially what this is about. I've not yet gotten very far into the book because it is some heavy reading. But I have been enjoying it very much so far. She employs a visualization technique that while I haven't mastered, I am enjoying. Basically you begin to visualize both halves of yourself that take control when you are trying to lose weight. The little super soldier that says you must do everything absolutely right, and the wild child that in an effort to protect you, tells you to do everything exactly the way you want to do it at that moment. The idea is to eventually realize that you aren't actually either of these personae. It's a bit complicated to explain.

The second bit part of the book though deals with goal making. I'm a very goal oriented person so I am loving this part. Basically, it breaks it down into 'four day wins'. If you want to change your behavior, you start with 4 day bursts. This is actually working. 4 'four day wins' strung together is enough to build a habit. This part I am identifying with regularly.

The other book I am working through right now is Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler. This book is basically all about understanding the natural cycles of the female body. I have long been envious of women with 'normal', natural, and predictable cycles. When I still had insurance, I was going to the doctor for help with my cycles. (Remember that whole honesty in posts thing, this is your chance to check out if TMI bothers you) I don't menstruate on anyone's schedule. Over the course of my life I've been known to go for MONTHS without a cycle, to the other extreme which I am living through now where I only get at most a week or two between bleeds, and those can last upwards of 2 months. It's sucks. But I had a bajillion tests run and everything seems to be fine with the exception that I am morbidly obese. The doctor feels I really need to lose the weight to see an improvement. The fat cells in my body are altering the amount of estrogen that should be there and as a result, there are not the normal rise and fall or hormones. These are the natural indicators your body uses to do what it's supposed to do. SO essentially, by body is without directions.

But the book is a good read. It's allowing me that much more insite into something my body should do naturally and will do again when I am healthy. I REALLY wish so much of this information had been made available to me when I was young and just starting to learn about my body and menstruation. I think this should have been core reading for health class. This book is definitely going on the amazon wishlist as even if I do manage to finish it before it needs to go back to the library, I am sure I will want a copy for reference.

Weight Check Wednesday

Happy Wednesday.

Wednesdays are going to be weight check days. I may also choose to include body measurements here, but not for right now. I decided my use of terminology was important for me. It's just a weight check and not a weigh in. I don't want to trigger my inner super soldier or anything by making it feel like this is a chore I need to do. Extremes are bad for me. They trigger my inner wild child to pull me in the other direction. I'm working on this. That is another post though.

So the weight check was not pleasantly surprising, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been considering the SEVERE indulgences that were going on during the cruise. I am guessing that the increased activity on the cruise helped counterbalance a little bit. Still the number was no where near where I want it to be and I don't think I am going to be able to make my original 12 week goal. But that is alright. Tuesdays are for goals, and I will make a new one then.

There is so much going on right now. I feel pretty overloaded. My original default mode for times like this is to just eat until I feel better. But I can't do that. I can't do that to my body and it doesn't work like it used to. Now I just feel worse after. My body and my mind are screaming for the changes I need to make.


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Track Goals Tuesday

Hello Again! It is day two of my unveiling my new structure. On Tuesdays I plan to re-evaluate my goals. I'll be able to determine which ones are working for me, which ones aren't and set new goals. I keep reading about setting goals and that it is important to revisit them frequently. I haven't been very good at this. Normally, I spend a great deal of time thinking up my goals and even get to the step of writing them down, but that's it. I don't tend to revisit them, and as such they fade from my mind.

So I know you're all just dying to know my goals for this week.
1st Blog at least once each day
2nd Increase walking to 3 miles for the week.
3rd Begin moving

I think I will start with those three.

MindTools.com has this to say about goal setting...

"Many people feel as if they're adrift in the world. They work hard, but they don't seem to get anywhere worthwhile.

A key reason that they feel this way is that they haven't spent enough time thinking about what they want from life, and haven't set themselves formal goals. After all, would you set out on a major journey with no real idea of your destination? Probably not!"

I can relate to this. I know from personal experience that I need a plan. I just don't function well without one. If I am trying to get something done, I need to know how and when I plan to do it. Well aren't goals the same thing? I think I have been treating my goals like destinations... "I want to loose 100lbs" or "I want to run my first 5k" They are good goals, but very lofty. We could determine these to be long term goals. But the short term goals are more like a plan of action. I find I am much more comfortable with this. Now the hard part, as it always is with me, is to get moving on them and not get stuck in the planning phase.

That's it for me right now. I'm going!

Mileage Monday

Hello Hello Hello! Glad to see you are still here. Does everyone remember when I said I would be unveiling my new blogging plan? Today is the first day of my new plan. Ta-Da! Shade your eyes, its all sparkly and new and I would hate to blind you. I'm still experimenting on whether or not Zombies can be blinded. The Jury is still out on that one.

Last week I went on a cruise. It was amazingly fun and I really needed the break from all things stressful going on at home. It really was rejuvinating. I did notice how bogged down I felt again once I got home. So I am once again reminded of how I really need to get moving and get things done. I can't just sit here and stagnate. But back to the cruise for a moment (don't I wish). As it turns out... on a cruise ship there are MIRRORS... EVERYWHERE.

I learned I have fat in places I didn't even know I had. Depressing.

But I also learned that I can look absolutely fabulous. Because I did. Oh yes! But I want to look better. I want to feel better. I've also come to realize I am going to be absolutely honest about things here. So if you don't want honesty, you don't want to be reading this blog. I've not worked out consistently in ages. AGES I tell you. I'm staying ahead of the zombies purely because they haven't the motor skills to tie their own shoelaces!

My good friend Robby runs a challenge called go the distance. I've been interested in it for a while but not really willing to commit to it just yet. But I've decided to do a personal challenge that is a bit more casual. So on Mondays I will be reporting my Mileage progress.

Small attainable goals that lead into larger ones. I'm all about that right now.

I want to WILL have walked three miles by Monday 3/14.

And remember!!!!