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I seriously need to work on my willpower. Umm... I was perfect until dinner time...

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The zombies are so coming after me with with cheese....

Achieve!

Today was a good day. I seriously feel like I can do this. It happened when I was running actually. I completed another day of week 1 C25K. I am so proud of myself. I even preformed better than I had last week. I walked at a 2.5 for the entire time, and 5 of my running sessions were at 3.0 and 3 of them were at 3.2.

Something just happened when I was running. Something inside me just changed. I was running along listening to my podcast on my MP3 player and suddenly I could feel this smile on my face. I was huffing and puffing and sweating and SMILING? There was this transformation going on inside my head. I saw myself running as I was, but the treadmill just kept on going and going. As I ran forward I would run out of my old body and my new body would be a little stronger, a little sleeker, and little more healthy looking, and It wold happen again and again. The feeling was so exhilarating. It certainly for me over the hard parts.

I think I will be ready for week 2 sooner than I anticipated!

Food Photo Journal Random

I have not yet gotten very good at remembering to photograph my food Since I have been back. There is so much going on this week!!! Now would be a bad time for the zombie invasion, just saying.

BUT, here are pictures of food I have eaten over the last few days. I will get better at this. In fact, I think tomorrow will be the day I am back on track with my food photographing.

A quote

A man who wants something will find a way; a man who doesn't will find an excuse.
~ Stephan Dolley Jr.

I think I've been truly coming to terms with this lately. I've come to realize that so may of the 'reasons' I've been saying I can't do something, are actually excuses. It really hit home when I ran my first day of c25k. I thought I was too big and too out of shape to do it. I thought my legs weren't strong enough or I didn't have the right clothing to do it. I wanted it so badly that I did it anyway.

I've been finding a few excuses over the last few days to not go run. I even had one or two reasons tossed in there. I want this so badly though, that I'll find a way today. Today I will run. Today I will do another day and I will get stronger and better and faster.

I am working towards Monday when I hope to see results on the scale. I know that once I complete what I set out to do, I'll already feel results inside myself.

But you know, it's still nice to see it on the scale. ;)

Zombies in my Dreams!

I dreamed of zombies last night. It wasn't particularly frightening, they are after all very slow. It was pretty gross though.. eww.

I indeed missed my run yesterday due to illness and muscle fatigue. However, I will be going tomorrow. My Educated Rabbit really needs another day before he can be out and about in the world.

I did take photo's of food yesterday, and I realize my food choices weren't great. However, we're running precariously low on food right now. Well that isn't exactly true. We're running low on healthy food. So right now we're in a situation to make due with what we have. We haven't been able to hit the grocery store yet.

Oh I did discover, that Edy's make an ice-cream that is lower fat and calories than full fat ice-cream. I day lower calorie and fat because it's not LOW fat. Anyway, I tried their Rocky Road and it's fantastic!! Also, they have a frozen yogurt line and we tried the Praline with Caramel and it was amazing.

I cannot let the undead take over the world, they have no need for frozen treats. They don't even have need for electricity! I cannot let sweet creamy goodness be jeopardized! I simply MUST go to the gym tomorrow!

Beautiful

"If you tell her she's beautiful, she'll think you're sweet, but she won't believe you. She knows that beauty lies in your beholding. You show her she is beautiful. You make mirrors of your eyes, prayers of your hands against her body. Suddenly the story she tells herself in her own head changes. She transforms. She isn't seen as beautiful. She is beautiful, seen." ~ Patrick Rothfuss, The Name of the Wind.

You know... not only do I want my lover to see me this way (which he does) but I also want to feel this way about myself. THAT I am still working on. But positive changes have been happening and though this weekend has gone a bit screwy, I am doing my best to remain on track.

Despite my best intentions, I am not going running this morning. I am bringing my running things with me, and will see if I can sneak it in. But, since I am helping a friend move over the weekend, I think I'll get my workout anyway. Then it's right back to the gym on Monday.


Now that I have a taste of success and can say I completed one day of C25K, I want to be able to day I completed a week.

After-all, the savior of the world and destructor of undead things doesn't give up! Not this girl...

Now where are my running shoes....

and my shotgun....

ETA: I WANT this shirt!!

Stress - It's a Killer...

Stress is not good for my appetite. It either makes me eat like crazy, or forget to eat. That latter is the case this time.

It's not even super stressful stress. I mean if I actually DID have to run from the zombies, I could understand the lack of appetite. But seriously, it's just arranging times, getting laundry and dishes done, and letting people know when I'll be around.

NOTHING MAJOR

Yes I completely forgot about eating. Thankfully my wonderful husband is in the process of fixing this faux pas and making me lunch.

Though.. for future though... zombies = no appetite.. because eww.